Category: Barkings
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Emptiness
There is no destiny. There is no fate. There is a way to the universe, aconnectedness, an unfolding. However, it is not predetermined. It makes sense in retrospect, sometimes. Many times it does not. You are not destined to be with a certain person, job, or experience. Your life, my life, is not crammed into…
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The Prophet
When I was in high school, some of my friends and I talked about those usual teenage existential topics such as death, religions, love, sex, etc. I decided I wanted to open my own church or maybe a temple. We devised a plan, my friends and I. We would somehow let people know a new…
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My Little Dance of Fear and Love
I have liked a guy since April. Did I ever tell the guy I liked him and asked him out for a date, at the least? No, of course not. Recently he admitted he knew I liked him. However at the same time he admitted he had been “dating ” someone throughout the time were…
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Christmas at Work 2024
hi all Enjoy the day. There’s not much more to say. I know many use Christmas spirits, any gift received, especially digital, holiday shopping, and extra bodies around to turn away from their issues, to disassociate. To them I also say enjoy. This life is fucking hard. No one is a bastion of secure self-awareness.…
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Validation for me! Validation for you! Validation for everyone!

In the last year I have been overwhelmed with social media professing the gospel of attachment theory. Hi, my name is Tom, I’m disorganizedly attached, and always confused and hurt. Hi, my name is Veronica, I’m secure, let’s discuss our boundaries. Please stand back, my name is Archie and I’m dismissive avoidant, Farther back please.…
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Confessio

Recently my friend told me his mother used to say, “This is hell”, referring to the world around her. He asked me if she knew what this felt like to him. I tried to listen and validate his feeling but he did not really elaborate how he felt after hearing her. His face was both…
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Stranger

When I was thirteen or so my aunt lent me a book that affected me in a profound way. I mean in a challenging me to be a different person, here is a blueprint or at least guidelines way. So much stuff to think about, a different way, shit, I mean really different. The book…
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Divergence
I’m incarnated as one short guy typing responses I’d like to give at the moment when the circuit when word is required I look and avert the eyes not seeing not knowing what face concerned looks over at me then the blank stare which hides any maelstrom of many branched thoughts that are twisting in…
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Constellation
The same answer is not the same answer. If my anger is smiling then where is the justice. If the light is diffuse concealing the subject then eyes are useless and mouths are just there to support flying lips that struggle to move against hard currents seeking to rise above landlocked seas. If I can’t…
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divorce
Hearing does not depend on the workings of the ear no incus or stapes will make you understand. Eyes staring over will not disappear that void of communion once filled with our symbols our standards entwined. Distance is no Einsteinian space no warping or wormhole connects what we fear. Each body alone will have to…