Tag: love

• Emptiness

  There is no destiny. There is no fate. There is a way to the universe, aconnectedness, an unfolding. However, it is not predetermined. It makes sense in retrospect, sometimes. Many times it does not. You are not destined to be with a certain person, job, or experience. Your life, my life, is not crammed into…

  Tom

  April 1, 2025

  Barkings

  Barkings, love, noise

• My Little Dance of Fear and Love

  I have liked a guy since April. Did I ever tell the guy I liked him and asked him out for a date, at the least? No, of course not. Recently he admitted he knew I liked him. However at the same time he admitted he had been “dating ” someone throughout the time were…

  Tom

  January 9, 2025

  Barkings

  atttraction, fear, loss, love, mental-health, relationships, that guy, writing

• Confessio

  

  Recently my friend told me his mother used to say, “This is hell”, referring to the world around her. He asked me if she knew what this felt like to him. I tried to listen and validate his feeling but he did not really elaborate how he felt after hearing her. His face was both…

  Tom

  August 22, 2024

  Barkings

  attachment, confession, hope, love

• Fortune Favors the Bold

  For too many years I woke up each morning wondering about what I was missing. I had no boyfriend or husband. I didn’t have the body I always wanted. At times, my thoughts were sludge, composed of fears and coagulating into a thick, hot mess. I am still that person. I’m still afraid of so…

  Tom

  May 15, 2024

  Uncategorized

  bold, life, light, love

• Lumberjack

  There is a lumberjack in my head. He is cutting down the forest, then building his own home, killing a deer or two for dinner for his woman and child, and then running off to the local lumberjack beer with his flannel backed buddies. He is loud and proud of his heterosexual demeanor. His feelings…

  Tom

  August 7, 2023

  Barkings

  gay, love, lumberjack, masculinity